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I am the worlds worst mother!
I know I'm not usually chit chatty here but I want that to change I want you all to see what I am about & that I am more than just reviews and giveaways so let me blow you all away with this post!
Recently I have come to the realization that I AM the worlds worst mother. Like seriously I know there is always Mommy guilt but this goes way beyond that!
I have been trying so hard to be the mom/woman I want to be but it seems like everything I do is not good enough. Life is really hard right now, the economy sucks & were struggling to make it. I am trying to be supportive of L & doing the mommy/wifey duties but I seem to fall short in everything I do. I'm losing my faith, my faith in myself, my faith in L, my faith in life, etc
I ripped my 4 lil guys away from their comfort zone, I ripped me away from my comfort zone & I have been so stressed & depressed that I am def not being the mom I want to be.
My boys have been hurt in some way or another a ton over the last 2 months. They had never had a black eye or nearly as many cuts/scrapes/bruises as they have in the last 2 months. My mommy guilt is in full force and I will tell you why. Each boy has had a black eye, T was from horsing around jumping from things etc. D was when him & Z crashed heads while jumping on the bed. Z was again from crashing heads while jumping on the bed! R was from falling off things (stroller) he shouldn't be climbing on (ok it really wasn't a black eye but a nice redmark with a scrape & lil bruising by his right eye) then there was last night the worst one ever! I was sitting over here at the computer chatting it up like the horrible mother I am while my 4 lil monkeys were calming down watching some cartoon on Nick Jr. I don't know exactly how it happened but D says T pushed him. T says he told D to jump over him. However it happened I hear this BANG as D's face smashes into the coffee table! I run to his side & his eye is already swelling soon its almost an inch off his face. I try to ice it in which he freaks out so I gave him a nice warm bath & some Tylenol (im sure it hurt & he kept saying ow & wincing) then we all cuddled up on the couch & finished a cartoon then it was bedtime. When he woke in the morning this is what he looked like!
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So there you have it, I am putting it out there, meet the worlds worst mother.
15 comments:
Oh most definitely not. I remember reading about a woman who boiled her baby because he would not stop crying. You are SO not the worlds worst mother. Big Brother has two scars from me being negligent (once I let him play with a glass and he hit his head and once I was vacuuming and I got his hand caught in the bristles). I could go on about all my short comings - including the inability to bring my youngest home any faster but you get the point.
God is working a good work in you. Don't lose faith. Take a deep breath and reevaluate the priorities in life. First, make sure you are giving your husband lots and lots of praise and love. Second, spend less time on the computer and more time on the floor with the kids. I give advice, not from some high platform, but on equal ground from one sister in Christ to another. We've ALL been there.
I also want to suggest buying some Arnica. If you aren't familiar with homeopathics go to your local health food store and ask them to give you a brief course or you can email me ;) Arnica is AMAZING and that black eye would have been unnoticeable today if you give it right away ((((hugs))).
Feel free to contact me for encouraging scripture or homeopathic help.
Autumn Beck
(((HUGS))) you are not the worlds worst mother. That was an accident, which can happen when you are vigilantly watching every, single step your children take. Accidents are out of our hands. We cannot control them or change them. I would say you were the worst mother if you continued to chat it up, but you didn't. You did what any great mother would do... you stopped what you were doing, consoled, and cuddled! You are a wonderful mother! Don't ever think otherwise :)
(((Hugs))) Boys are rough & tumble & they are going to get hurt. Sometimes it just comes in clusters.
awww my sweet friend. first off thanks for the email i will respond back in email. :0) this may seem weird, but it's nice to hear other mom's struggle sometimes too. my whole post last friday was like this one. BUT god. he will see you through it. don't listen to the lies of the enemy telling you you're a bad mom. because you are NOT A BAD MOM. YOU are a super great wonderful fantabulous mom. k? k. and i LOVE reading 'you' from the heart. it's okay to be honest and open. heck i always am an open book, so i like reading others' open books!! keep on keeping on!!
Oh Jess, you so are not a bad mom! Big hugs to you. xx
You are not the worst mother...If you're the worst what does that make me? Jaime is covered in scars...
Sweetheart, I know you feel just awful about it, and I totally understand that, but you are a good mother. You care, you are there, and you worry that you're not doing the best you think you could and that makes you want to try harder because you are a GOOD mother.
Change is hard for everyone, but the truth is, even if you'd been sitting next to them, boys will still go from calmly sitting to flying across the room and bumping into things or banging heads and geting a black eye before you can dislodge your bottom from a chair. I know, I've observed it. My nephew fell off a ladder while I was watching them the other day and I felt so irresponsible for letting it happen, but in retrospect, there was nothing I could have done barring barring them from the treehouse, which wouldn't have gone over well at all.
*hugs*
I hope you don't still feel bad and like the worlds worst mother.
For the record, I feel it is inappropriate for me to try to profit off this post and comment, so I'm not going to go running off saying "i commented on the worlds worst mother" because i'm commenting to a good mother and you need to know that.
your children love you, and you are valued for your goodness.
*hugs*
i'm sorry that this moving fiasco has been just that, a fiasco.
That doesn't make you the worst mother, it just makes you a mother of boys!!! My boys are always getting hurt one way or another. Comes with the male territory!!!
If that makes you a bad mom then WE ALL ARE! I have 2 little boys of my own and they stay bruised all over! I think its just a boy thing. I try to explain every little scrape when they go to the doctor and she just laughs and says the bruises and scrapes just means thats how you can tell that they're little boys! Don't feel bad we do the best we can and even though sometimes we think its not enough, they still love you no matter what!
If that makes you a bad mother, then so am I. My daughter broke her arm when she fell off the toilet while brushing her teeth! Hopefully she gets her cast off tomorrow.
Kids can be clumsy. Poor boy. My guy had a bruise on his cheek recently from banging in the wall.
Ditto what everyone else (including the arnica, we go through tons here, both tablets and ointment.
Lots of ((SQUISHY HUGS))!
you are NOT the worlds worst mother!! boys will be boys and they will always get hurt, don't beat yourself up over it!
You are definitely not the world's worst mother! Kids are rough and playful...and thankfully pretty resilient too!
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